I had been in a relationship for a year but now I broke up with him. Before I used to think that the fault lies solely with him. I didn't like the feeling that he is trying to control over the things I want to do. He would care but I felt I didn't wanted his care also. Every small fight would make me to think that the reason was him and not me. But now as I figure out things....I feel like he was a perfect boy any girl would want to have, he showered all his love, gave his true part and what more could a girl want. I can see faces that are trying to say that I will repent on my decision for the times to come. At that very moment I feel guilty but I am not going to hold back. I will live with this guilt so that I remember to never treat any guy like I did right now. I don't want to repent on my decision because I know that what I did was right. He had been perfect that made me imperfect for him. I was the one not meant for the LOVE and not him and the moment I realised it I had to tell him. I wish him lots of happiness and success but don't want him back again in my life. I just want to be me and this is me presently with all the times for me and only me.

LOVE

I am LOVE
Not just a mere word
I am someone Lovable
I am someone so occult
I am someone so ardent
With the effect of the Elixir
I am not just a four lettered word.

I vary in all the beings
For parents I am care
For lovers I am obsession
For teachers I am a student
For orphans I am a need
For cold-blooded I am just a waste
For kids I am juvenile
For a foe I am vengeance
I am not just a one meaning word.

I come in reality through various ways
Often its too much to take me
Or else some suffer in scarcity of me
I jump where there is prosperity
And aid where there is adversity
I may come in less or more
But I am best when I come from the inner core
In luxury I am a puppet
In poverty I am a ruler
I don't have only one way entrance

I am not like the ALL MIGHTY
But I have powers more POWERFUL
I am not dreadful like EVIL
But I am more DESTRUCFUL
I am not as red as fire
But I burn down emotions
I am not as white as snow
But I am as pure as life's perceptions
I don't occupy a building so big
Instead I live in four beauitful chambers
Chambers where i am always secure
I am LOVE
Not just a mere word
Not just a four lettered word.

Confiding is negligence

Sometimes living for you sounds so selfish. Before I used to appreciate those who would confide themselves within their four walls. I would take them as idol for what I thought was “being alone makes aware of oneself” but now I realize that such people exist when they are loners for real. They don’t care for what they make impact around them or what people might think about them. Ask me how I have dealt with my loner days. I liked being all alone in my room not bothering about what is happening outside. My schedule would be from class to room and room to class. I also thought I was happy but you never know. Our loved ones get hurt to see us confiding but they seem to be helpless too. So what should we do now? Should we just ignore them because our ignorance will bring bliss to us? If we confide we are happy ourselves but if we open up we make a lot of people happier. I am not talking about GNH out here. This is a very broad topic to be discussed out here. I have realized a lot when I actually tried to confide myself, realization about how much we are being worried by our dears, realization that confiding is not a fair game to be played and realization that being a loner just eats up your brain. I don’t say don’t be alone all the time, we should give ourselves some quality time also but what I am trying to say out here is that we are not made of ourselves only. We are a group, a bunch, a society, a community and so on. So we should rather think about the dears before going into the dark room of confiding.